Letting go is a bitch. And she deserves a swift kick.
Although I am thoroughly enjoying this transition… For once, a major transition is NOT associated to an extreme level of stress. So I’m enjoying the SoCal weather. So I’m enjoying using up our accumulated hotel points and staying in awesome hotels for free. So I’ve managed to save up enough money these past years to do this the easy way… I’m still dangling in a transition. Ever hear of the expression “Jump and the net will appear”?
I have NO job prospect, yet. And I have been applying for jobs for the past 3 months now. Jobs for which I totally qualify. Totally. But for which I’ve got zero networks here in this country. If I were in Canada? If I were in Canada, other than I’d be single (my dude is so not into the Canadian cold), I’d have NO trouble finding work. Work always found me.
But you know what? This jobless/homeless situation I’m currently in is no big deal for me. Oddly enough, I’m totally ok with that. But the fact that my expenses are at a huge minimum, I’m still comfy. Shit, if I had rent, electricity, and a lifestyle to pay it would be a totally different story!
What am I doing? This is NOT the purpose of my post!!!
Oh yeah, letting go.
When we left our apartment above the shop we loaded our skis, snowboards, and bikes. The weather was frightening in Colorado, so we only used the snow toys once. Once. In Cali, we’ve used our bikes almost 10 times already. It’s a bitch negotiating the in’s and out’s of all those toys with the pick-up. A bitch.
And the boat? Oh, it’s a done deal. A few more hoops need to be jumped through, but it’s ours minus the keys in hand. Until employment is confirmed, we’ll be living on the boat. A visit to Play It Again Sports informed us our boards, skis, boots have a total net worth of… (ding-ding-ding-ding) $160. ONE HUNDRED AND SIXTY FUCKING DOLLARS! My poles alone are worth $150. “Fuck that!” I said.
We walked out.
What am I gonna do with fucking snow toys on a sailboat? In Southern California. Maybe even Mexico. Snow toys. SNOW TOYS… I’m willing to bet I will go back to that Play It Again Sports and beg them to keep their offer!
Letting go is a bitch.
And I’m not done!
I let go of my hopes and dreams and wishes of ever getting my Verizon based iPhone and bought the HTC Droid Incredible. After 15+ hours of personalizing it, adding my contacts (with everybody’s picture because I’m messed up like that) and connecting it to my laptop and doing a shitload of stuff: the Droid and the Mac DO NOT PLAY WELL TOGETHER. At all.
What do I let go now?
Also… and this is a big one. Letting go of old contacts. Updating my database I needed to review every single name in there. Are they worthy of my extra work to get a pic in their contact card? How about my dad?
My dad passed away over 7 years ago. 7 years. And today was the first day (of the rest of my life… yuk) where I finally decided to remove his name from my contact list. A big step. I hit the delete button and stared at the confirm the permanent delete for a few minutes. How can I permanently delete my dad from my memory?
Now that’s a whole lotta letting go for one day for a homeless unemployed chick lost in SoCal…