How do I answer these questions? That’s easy: “I don’t know.”
Thanks to my meditation I’ve realized that I cannot answer those two basic and fundamental questions: who am I and what do I want?
Not to do any blame shifting, but 12 years of supporting someone else’s dreams has literally given my life a blank state. Don’t get me wrong, those were some of the best years of my life! Working as a racecar mechanic and touring the country 10 months out of the year, each year, until we packed it up and moved onto a boat? Yeah. Fun times!
The party is over, and it’s time for me to return to me. My entire life – I’ve always known what I wanted. I’ve always had goals, ambitions, dreams, and a very specific idea of what I wanted to do, and accomplish.
I’m guessing this is the main reason behind my current woes and life drama. I’m taking all the necessary steps to fix this situation.
- I’m meeting with two potential life coaches today and tomorrow to see if one can be a fit, and help me craft my vision.
- I’m starting up with a new group that meets every Wednesday evening – it’s a mindfulness group. Thank you Kaiser Permanente!
- I’m also starting a one-on-one therapy to happen every other week or so.
Feelings of excitement and giddiness are overcoming me as one can experience before a trip. Life is an adventure, if we knew where it took us, who knows who would want to engage in it as much…